Inside of me

I dont know What has come of me !
Feels bit low whenever I try to rise
I gulped down all mocks of fate
Assuring myself all will be well
In Hole in my boat in the mid of sea
I am struggling like fool to stay afloat
I cant sort out my strife by any way
How can i walk on my own way!
I tried to live my life,not to survive 
Dreams runs wild in my red blood
But When I try to Grasp myself
I find all empty inside my heart
buried under burden of reality
All surrender and sing of o great fate
Waiting with bated breath , same hope
I am compelled to sing along with them